I don't know if my story has any value here, because I didn't take testosterone. I wasn't abused as far as I know. I just was always less than I expected to be.
I wanted respect and a pay raise. Then when I was investigating, I realized that I would always behave as a woman. That even if I passed, I would always expect to be paid less, have less authority, less value, less respect.
So I stopped wasting my time and energy on the project. Through this investigation I found that I am powerful as a woman, I have as much authority as I have, my value comes from me, not from others.