I came out as trans when i was 16, started testosterone at 18 and stopped and reidentifying at 20 years old.
I guess the reason I started transitioning is because I always felt there was something wrong with me as a person. I had so much self loathing that I thought life would be better if I was a completely different person.
I had massive dysphoria and thought I would be better off as a man. So I lied to everyone and myself.
I somewhat snapped at 20 and just stopped going to my hormone appointments and started trying to get in touch with my body. I realized no matter what I will be female and I learned to live with it instead of hate it.
I was assaulted and raped when I was young and it made me realize that was what made me hate my body.