Something which I find very important to say is that I don’t regret transitioning and that being trans wasn’t a mistake I made. It feels scary but also good to share my story with others.
Growing up in a female body wasn’t easy for me. Friends told me I should lose weight, I couldn't leave the house without men whistling after me and people talked to my breasts instead of talking to my face. My body didn’t feel like it was mine.
I didn't want to live as a woman anymore, so I shaved my hair, starved myself into being underweight to somehow get rid of the body I hated so much and I started researching on trans identity while crying every day.
When I was 20 I decided to either kill myself or to transition into a man. Maybe I just wasn’t supposed to be a woman, maybe I’ve just been born transgender. It was the only explanation I could find.
Transitioning saved me and I won't ever regret this decision. But it also brought me to a place of reflection on why i really transitioned. I don't think that I was just born trans anymore, instead I think that I became trans.
I am planning to stop testosterone for going back to a female appearance. To face the bad image of women that society taught me and embrace a new and stronger one.